I Will Never Let You See Me Cry !!

I'm not the type to get my heart broken..

I'm not the type to get upset and cry..

Cause I never leave my heart open..

Never hurts me to say goodbye..

Relationships don't get deep to me..

Never got the whole in love thing

And someone can say they love me truely

But at the time it didn't mean a thing..

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round

And deep inside, my tears i'll drown..

I'm losing grip, what's happening..

I stray from love, this is how I feel..

This time was different..

Felt like, I was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife..

When you walked out of my life..

Now i'm, in this condition

And i've, got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what you'll never see me cry !!

How did I get here with you, i'll never know..

I never meant to let it get so, persona..

lAfter all I tried to do, stay away from loving you..

I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know

And I won't let it show..

You won't see me cry !!

My Twin + My BSF

My Twin + My BSF ( Best Sister Forever ) was back..this evening Me and My Bro Shaffiq went to KL Sentral to picked Her up~miss Her so much!!( She went to Indonesia for a trip for almost one week )..after that We ate KFC at Mid Valley for a lunch..look2 N see2 at The Gardens~My Bro want to buy something for His friend ( Birthday Gift ) , so My Sis was recommened a sports bag for His because of His friends like to go to Gym..plz dont ask Me,I dunno anything about boys's stuff~
( this situation where My Bro Shaffiq asked for My idea-then I'd told Him that ' How about sneakers ?? ' ) sneakers N gym ?? match ?? emm..dunno~

Wednesday O Wet-Ness Day ??

Sweating + Raining + NOT-2-Crying = Wet-Ness Day
I am so happy..finally, all My efforts was worthfully..already paid off !!
I already pass My JPJ TEST !! wahaha~=) fuh !!

sweating for a hopes..
[1] I am really scared at first..
[2] kyaaa,I got many friends ( Cool-Soon Book Che Che , Gorgeous-Sasha , funny-Sin Yie and many-more but forgot to asked Their name )..thanks for Soon Book Che Che coz treats Me mix fruit~luv luv You!!
[3] raining for awhile..sugoi~
[4] waiting eventhough tiring..got A-Lot of fun with them..

to Mr.JPJ,
I am sorry..
I can read deep down from Your bottom of Your heart..
dont be scared oh..
I am not going to kill You oh..hehe!!=p
anyway,thanks a lot coz give Me a chance and let Me pass with a flying colours..
kamsahamnida..next month, I will buy for You something if I meet You !!
It is not bribe okies !!

coversation between Me N Mr.JPJ after just finished ' Driving On Da Road Session '
Mr.JPJ : emm , from what I've observed..unfortunately that You've to come for next week to repeat JPJ Test~the way You driving not really smooth and not really well..
Me : emm,okay, thanks Mister..(with a sad-sad look and slow-down voice..I am forcing My tears to not falling )

after He gave Me a pink-coloured piece of paper, I was straightly went to a toilet to called My Mama to told Her that I'd failed for a 2nd test..(INSIDE TOILET) while I am on the phone , got 2 girls in that toilet then without thinking I'd asked them what is pass-marks for ' Driving On The Road Test ' ?? ( eventhough I know-just wanna make sure that I am not mis-heard during driving lesson that day ) They said 16 in synchronize way..wahaha !!=) I'd make a phone called and dialled My Mama's number while trying to convinced Myself by opened and looked at that pink-coloured paper from My rust-brown sling bag..What?? I'd passed ?? My Mama answered Her phone and asked Me that what I'd got for My Test..then I'd replied~( Ma,I'd passed..!! I got 17/20-emm,cukup2 makan ) I am so happy..I'd felt like I'd got straight A's in My SPM~LOLz =p..that 2 girls laughing at Me and wishing Me congratulation after curi2 dengar My conversation between Me N My Mama~

Bukit , Side Parking N 3Pointer ??
emm, ~NO COMMENT~

Can I Be Your No.2 Lover ??

If She love You..

more than My love towards You..

I will sacrifies and I will let You go..

eventhough , I know that I will hurt at the end of the day..

If everything is difference..

You are not someone that I adore..

but My hearts already pick You..

eventhough , I know that You will never leave Her..

Can I be Your Number 2 lover ??

please make Me happy , that is all I need..

eventhough , I know that You will never be mine..

Butterflies In My Stomach

tomorrow is My 2nd JPJ Driving Test..LOLz~ 2nd ?? hehe!!=)

Oh Em Gee~

I am so scared !!

I am begging for a pray..

I am hoping for a sudden miracle..

I am doing to the fullest..

NO PAIN NO GAIN !!

Semoga Berjaya April !!

U Can Do It April !!

April Hwaiting !!

Aja Aja Fighting !!

Cayok Cayok April !!

Gambatteh April !!

( I hope that I can do it My best at Three Pointer )

S.O.S

Pre-Diploma in Science ??

Diploma in Science ??

Diploma in Nursing ??

Diploma in Accounting ??

Talking Crap ??

oh NO..

eventhough I am falling to the ground many times..

eventhough I am crying until there is no tears falling..

eventhough I am such a fool to My Parents's eyes..

eventhough I am desperate for a dream that seems difficult for Me to catch..

oh NO..

GIVE UP still not My words !!

I will waking up from the place that I am falling..

I will stop crying and wiped My tears using My sweaty hands..

I will prove to them that I am neither a loser nor a fool..

I will catch My dreams..

oh NO..

even everyone pulling Me backwards..

even everyone insulting Me again and again..

even everyone forcing Me to just ended up give up..

even everyone looks down on Me..

even everyone under-estimated Me..

even everyone teasing Me..

GIVE UP still not My words !!

I am crying in the middle on the night..

every night , My tears become My Bestie Friends..

accompanying Me..

oh NO..

I am not like My any siblings..

I am a lot different..

I am hard-headed..( thats what My Sis said )

I am straight-forward..( thats what My Sis said )

I dont like talking about the good things that I have done to My Parent..I'd rather keep quiet than to be proud of My Myself..

I know that My Parent dont believe what I may saying to them..so,there is no point to talking crap without a proof..

Can I Called You ' MINE ' ??

I feel a lot relieved now..
I feel like I had just solved hard mathematics problems..
I feel great and in a good mood..

someone got asked Me,
Phoebe : is there is true love ??
April : yes,probably..
Phoebe : I dont believe in true LOVE..(frankly..)
April : True LOVE doesnt happen to You but that doesnt mean that It is not EXIST !!

True LOVE is not something that can be defined in a sentence..
It is as strapping as much as it is unconditional, comforting as it is reassuring, powerful as it is everlasting, and anything but superficial..
It is simply wonderful..
Supposedly, the best things in life are free if only that were true..
True LOVE takes sacrifice, persistence, and patience, caring and endurance..
most of all, acceptance..
To want the best for someone, to be there when you are needed, and to give anything towards what you believe in takes all..
It is not true when it is not genuine..
I say this to all women and men..
To truly love is to give your heart, your spirit, and your soul into what you believe to be worth what it takes to make the pain worth the pleasure..

True LOVE is above and beyond measure..
True LOVE is genuine..
True LOVE is divine..
True LOVE is yours and True LOVE is mine..

When N Why ??

could anyone teach Me how to smile ??
I feel awkward when I am trying to smile..
I feel difference..
I feel hard..

My lips freezed..

I was missing My smile..
Where does It goes ??

I was trying to smile but It doesnt show that expression..
I was trying to smile but It is tough for Me..

I dont know..
since when and why..
I just only can sigh along falling tears..

Don't Look Too Good Nor Talk Too Wise

If You KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT
some people said that You looks like You have no brain..

If You TALKATIVE
some people said that You looks like You wanna catch some attention..

If You SMILE
some people said that You looks fake..

If You CRY
some people said that You looks like a loser..

so,DONT LOOK TOO GOOD NOR TALK TOO WISE..DONT SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS~NO HARM TO BE HUMBLE~anyway,WHO CARES??JUST BE YOURSELF..YOU KNOW YOURSELF BETTER !! ryte??