C l o u d N R a i n b o w

i believe that there are somethings hidden over the cloud and amazing rainbow..
yes, now i believe..
it is called as our destiny and our fate..
yes, now i believe..
because i do feel it..

[ goodbye ] J . U . N . E [ h i ] J . U . L . Y

oh,my adrenaline hormone secreted in a large amount in my body just now..
when i searched to a dot-dot website..
one of my friends got asked me to do so,so i'd to do it..
i'd found out that i have been accepted to dot-dot application..

am i supposed to feel happy ??
or am i supposed to feel bad about myself ??

hehe,such a lame question..of couse i am happy !!
thank GOD,really feel good about myself right now..

i have to forget about JUNE
and i have to learnt to love from now on JULY

tata, AS120 !! I am gonna miss you though ~

ps/ i will always love and adore you,AS120 even we just been dating almost 2years in secondary school and 6years in primary school (i'm not sure have we been met each other in kindergarten)..sorry AC110,i dont even know you~i dont even interested to know you more deeply..but finally,i have to make a risky decision by choosing you as my newly soul-mate..huhu !! T_T I have to because i have no choice~

background music : Never Be Replaced by First Lady

(red) STOP CRY (yellow) GET READY TO FLY (green) FLY HAPPILY

dont be sad my honey !!

sometimes,I tried to wipe away all your tears by a sincere humor jokes..eventhough it is cheapest things in this world but only that i can afford..

sometimes,I tried to kiss your eyes and exchanged your heart so that you will forget everything and start to smile even it is just a impossible thoughts..

I-AM : usually when I walked alone,I would like to walking faster so that i could reached to the place quicker..

U-NOE-WHO : umm,so let walking faster like you usually do..

I-AM : emm,dont want..I wished I could stop the ticking of time so that I could having and spending my quality time with you more..so,walking faster when I am with You ?? oh NO !!

U-NOE-WHO : ..........( smile )

ps/ My tooth (upper jaws) is really painfull..went to dentist this afternoon with My lovely Sis along..nway,nice chicken+vegetroubles soup~I lovin' it !! =p thanxz cook 4 Me..hehe ~=p so soupilicious !! I still remembered that tyme,masuk kitchen..ya la,ingat wanna helping cooking and with the chores but turn to miserably-trouble-clumsy when got sumtin' turns fall apart..the cooking oil was spilled down and messed here N there~hehe!!=p sounds funny but difficult to handle with to lap sini la lap sana la..sangat selekeh~=p then,yesterday masuk kitchen suddenly potato .......thank GOD,does not split and mashed on the floor !! so ?? wat does it mean ?? am i a good cooker ?? hehe~

music background : Paradise by T-Max

WARNING : Dun Read If U Noe Me !!

the night was slowly turns to emotionless face..
everything was dull and cliche..
just like another night..

the darkness and wideness shows all my deeper and my weary soul..
the thoughtful of my feeling was really messed and fully-filled with hatred..
used to be sacred..
where am I going to spread my story ??
to whom ??
umm..nobody want to listen and take any action..

the sounds of music was my melody of sadness..
the loudness of the songs is the strongers my sadness is..
oh,umm..nobody cares !!

the stars blinking and sometimes fade away ??
where had you go ??
sometimes , eventhough I have somebody around me..
I still feel lonely..
my heart still hurt as always..
the loneliness still here,in my heart..
sometimes,I didnt get it..
nobody try to get close to me and ask me to talk about myself..
nobody..
I had shared my story-life with nobody..
nobody seems to know me well..
and again..nobody cares !!

if you hate me or dislike me..
please dont show it..
because it is too obvious !!
and sorry,you seems like a not a good actor though !!

I am also a human..
so,treat me as a human too !!

get attention is always not my first priority in my life..
and now,still the same..
I am being truly myself !!

Her tears flooding in her eyes like a melting of ice-cream..
Her heart is fragile like a break-easily glass substances..
Her cheeks is poisoning with tears like a water fountain with water flowing through it..

Unintended N Extended

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You could be the one I'll always love

You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

You could be the one I'll always love

First there was the one who challenged

All my dreams and all my balance

She could never be as good as you

I'll be there as soon as I can

But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had

Before you

' Unintended by Muse '

p.s/this song make Me sleepy everytyme I listened to It..nways,love Matthew Bellamy voice~diz songs is Nice N Deep !! Deep ?? hehe !! =p Deep fry ?? hehe.. =p starving ryte now,smells of My Sis's cooking was terribly gooooood~~~~cant wait to eat Penne Arrabbiata !! tata Lulu,wanna help look look-see see in the kitchen..

Epik High Vs Wondergirls ??

LOL..Epik High sing Nobody by Wondergirls~ ( source : U-Tube )
terribly misseribly cool..hehe !! =p
" I WAN NOBODY NOBODY BUT CHYUUUUHHH !! "
scares Me out N almost lost My voice box coz triple funny..wakaka =p

TABLO : amazing voice..screamo~hehe !!=p ruined So Hee's part,so terribly scary..
DJ TUKUTZ : girly voice..
MITHRA JIN : cute dance..hehe~=p BIG BEAR !!

p.s/1-already look-see dat place..look a bit haunted~hehe!! kidding =p
2-currently reading a novel ' Princess in the Spotlight ' by Meg Cabot..borrow from My Sis N I plan wanna baik punya cilok coz so addictive N attractive story line~hehe !! =p such a great opening story and still not finished it up..now read page86~

H e r T h o u g h t

time is ticking..
time is running out..

could I managed to reach that climb ??

My heart is fragile..
My heart was burned and waiting for explosive..
the ashes that I would thrown them away from My naked eyes..
the wind would blow it away far from here..

oh , I know that just a view from my eyes..
I already awaken by my truthly thought..
this lovely song from caterpillars that make me still blinking..
oh , It is just my trashy thought..

lets just wait and open eyes widely..
just do it even you knew that it is tough like a [+]MAD
no turning back..
there is no turning back..

Tears Dont Fall

cant wait to further study !!

Am gonna miss a lotz of people and I can surely crying all night coz missing My Parents N My Siblings..huhu T_T

hey April,grow up !!

It Cant B Removed Lyke A Tatoo

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like a smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind (say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day
without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless

What is it about that person next to you, did She make you cry ??
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely ??
I am worried,
I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to

If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
Always be happy with him,
(so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever
I pray for you

ps : To My broken pink hp casing..My Abah bought It for Me but only can stand for a day~the next day,sudden terjatuh N tercabut !! hehe=p

Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee ~~~=p

this story of Mine sounds really3 funny when I thinking of It..

It is happen yesterday..
the situation :
My Mama watching teevee N sit beside My Sis
My Sis online on the couch infront of teevee
Me stand-sit ( act,I am not sure whether Iam sitting or standing at that time=p) infront of My Mama

suddenly My Sis open My blog sites N the song come out..
Me sudden acting like in the Music Video that They do It N do lips-sync of My Blog's song infront of My Mama..hehe =) I am such a silly N childish girl~
N My Mama laughing..so cutey~

My Blog's Song Girl's Generation/SNSD : Gee

(nways,what was happen to this computer-today is My 1st time using this computer after be repaired..all Epik High song sounds like dangdut version~oh NO,especially Their song called 1minute 1second..to obvious~I had problem wif diz speaker maybe..a LOT different than something that I usually heard from My Abah's laptop~hehe =p Their beat is sick~This song used to be sad N poetic but now turns to dangdut version..wakaka =p I hate diz speaker !!)