I won't tell anyone.

Nevermind.
I'll be okay.
this is just a temporary.
(I'd trying make myself feel calm)

how sad it is.
how pain it is.
I'd promise to myself that I'll be alright.

honestly speaking. I hate my family right now.
I dunno why n please don't ask me why.
but I felt this way everytime they speak to me.
why you being so mean to me?
why had I did to you?

sometimes I wish that My family are not my biological blood.
do you get what I mean?

everthing that I did is wrong.
why cant you take me as I am?

sometimes, It is hard to being nice.

I won't tell anyone.
May time heal me.

?

Nevermind I'll find someone like you.
Ai wish nothing but the best for you,too.
Don't forget me Ai begged.
Ai remembered you said.
"sometimes It lasts in love,
but sometimes It hurts instead".

Adele-Someone Like You

glurppp. such a sad song~ grief!
heyyy wait a minute.
ME? listen to a sad song?
wat was happening here?
Gee-Gee-Gee~ :)

Ai couldnt be like what you wanted dad.
but Yu shud proud of me because Ai am totally being me~
sometimes It is hard to explain.
nobody knows my feeling.
It is bleeding inside.
but dont worry.
I'll never let you see me cry.
Ai also hv a big hopes, dreams.
Ai am work on it dad.
Yu just need to wish me fur the best.
that's all~
Ai am trying!
Ai just want you to know that. Ai am trying and Ai have a heart too because Ai am human not a monster. kayyy~ betta stop now! haha. :) <3

AIM HIGHER CHATZE. :)

post it note. starting today~ cehhh! :)

1.buy envelope (A3 size) fer filing the report.
2.daily report- today mesti siap sampai April. so, that means kena cancelled lunch with Evon~ huhu! sori Evon. maybe 2moro kay~ Ai promise! really have to. sorry again~ :(
3.thick report siapkan starting 8pm till ........ (not sure).

intro 100%
Chapter 1 50%
Chapter 2 0%
Chapter 3 80%
Chapter 4 0%
Chapter 5 not sure. later need to check back~ :)
Chapter 6 100%
Chapter 7 100%
Chapter 8 100%

4. packing things. 4/7/2011
5. things to buy:
-5 pairs baju kurung
-milk powder ENSURE
-night cream OLAY rembat Mama punye. keh keh keh~:)
-multivitamin
-new heater (kettle)
-food supply
-toilettories. do Ai spell it rite? double tt?
-scarf.
-buku MUET (borrow from My Sis sudeeehhhh. hihi~ :)

LORD KNOWS. DREAMS ARE HARD TO FOLLOW.

Sangat penat.
bertungkus lumus untuk siapkan report~
i'm tired !
really exhausted. huhu~ :(
sweating sambil huming-huming lagu MC-Hero!
haha, Ai noe it kinda old but heyyy Ai don't care.
daily report in progress but still 50%!
thick report not done maybe about 40%!
so how?

going back to Kedah. maybe 4th or 5th of July 2011.
still hoping my report has done earlier so Ai have a betta life then.

hoping for 4.00 flat for my final year~ Amin ! InsyaALLAH. :)
Usaha + Doa + Tawakal = 4.00 flat.

next sem would be :
- no karaoke fer every weeks maknenya everday haha. haishhh. Chatze, ur focus need more focus~ glurppp ! :)
- solat. recite Al-Quran after perform solat Maghrib~ :)
- no last minute revision. that means everyday yu have to revise like tomorrow is gonna b ur final exam fer dat paper.
- follow schedule plsss. discipline is the main thing~ ngeee! :(
- aim UM. InsyaALLAH~

okayyy. betta finish up ma report~ huhu ! 4.00 flat. InsyaALLAH~ Amiin! :)

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STILL THINK BOUT THIS THING A LOT.

macam mana keadaan nenek kat situ?

nenek masih rasa sakit tak?

nenek masih rasa letih tak?

minta maaf nenek sebab tak melawat nenek.

tak tahu pun nenek masuk hospital.

kalaulah boleh diputarkan masa.

akanku mohon seribu ampun darimu.

mesti banyak dosaku terhadapmu nek.

selalu buat nenek risau.

nenek duduk situ baik-baik ya.

nanti satu hari Adek akan menyusul menemani nenek lagi.

melihat nenek pergi dalam keadaan tersenyum pun sudah buat hati Adek tenang.

lepas ni nenek takperlulah rasa susah hati lagi.

Adek akan selalu doakan nenek kat sana.

nenek adalah yang terbaik.

Yu are my only grandma.

I love yu so much.

terima kasih menjaga Adek slame ni.

tak dapat dibalas pergorbananmu.

Al-Fatihah Nek.

tunggu Adek ye

I try letting yu go..

still thinking bout this thing a lot

how your life there?

i'm afraid they gonna hurt yu.

yu got me shaken up

please tell me there's a way

i'm gonna miss yu badly Nek..

Please.Dont Tell Me Goodbye.

I'm gonna miss yu

why yu leave me?

I need yu.

Al-Fatihah untuk Arwah Nenek.

Fun + Freedom = Finally

finally.
my miserable life ends.
during a month of April I've been worked fer 12hours a day.
fuhhh.
thanks Allah fer everything.
Ai tot that Ai am gonna be crazy.
lucky. It's almost.
my memory.
still here and remains here.
eventhough all the circumstances that Ai had faced.
finally. Ai made it.
with flying colours.
thanks Mr Lee Swee Yong fer giving me the precious opportunity fer having a practical fer 5 months there.
Miss Teh Poh Ling.
Mrs Esther.
Miss Jenny Ling.
Miss Lee Yun.
Miss Lee Shirlin.
Miss Evon Ng Hui Yen.
Miss Windy.
Miss Wee San.
Mr Cheong Hon Noon.
Mr Lee Pan Yang.
Mr Kar Hoe.
Mr Raymond.

Dang.

Why Ai am hurting like this?

oh SHIT.

wae naman irokedo apahanunji?

I MY ME MINE

Ai am who Ai am.

accept Me fer being Me.

Ai am not gonna changed it.

fullstop.

sorry haters.

yu just waste ur time. lol.

~babo gati haru jongil~

SHUT UP strangers.

hello.sorry.

who are yu?

yu dont know me.

and ai dont know yu fer sure.

first, ai wanna tell yu that ai am not a spoilt kid.

secondly, ai am not fully depends on my parents and siblings.

thirdly, shut up strangers.

finally, mind ur on business. such a busybody. yu dont hv ur life ah?

~biromogul niga miwojyo~