Not A Princess No Glass Slippers

Maybe it wasn't there to begin with
that fun, sad, and kind story..

Maybe it was a dream or illusion..
Maybe I slept too long..

In the season when I can feel
the smell of summer in the blue sky..
I remember a face..

The scenery of the city began to distort..
I searched for sunglasses
so I could lose all the colors..

What I wanted to be ??
Not a princess..
What I wanted to have ??
Not glass slippers..

What I wanted to be ??
I wanted to be with you..
What I wanted to have ??
Was your smiling face..

The wind and the smell of summercut through today's sky..
It's ok so I agreed
Because if it's fate like we said
then we can meet again somewhere..

la la la la la la..
It's ok so I agreed..
la la la la la la..
Because I'm so strong..

2day N ' YES ' terday

Today's happy face, today's sad face..
Yesterday's weak self, tomorrow's strong self..
If it's you, who are you showing it to ?? If it's me, who should I show it to ??

Time is sometimes a cruel thing,
but the present is made by that cruelty..

Unceasingly searching for someone, an instant of release
soon triumphs over the visiting fear..

As I don't even notice the flowers shaking before my feet,
I can't even look at myself in the mirror..

Today's happy face, today's sad face..
Yesterday's healed wounds and today's deeply opened wounds..
If it's you, who are you showing it to ?? If it's me, who should I show it to ??

The sanity and insanity that I was given and are mine only,
Both exist together without negating the other..

Futile things, spilled things, and useless things..
I'll choose with confidence, so I am of myself..

Because I have always defined happiness with my own standards..

Today's happy face, today's sad face..
Even if yesterday's healed wounds have opened today,
If it's you, who can you show it to ?? If it's me, I want to show it to that person..

L . o . l . l . i . p . o . p

I dont want My soul to be tastless like a plain water..
I dont want My soul to be sweet like a lollipop ..

I dont want My soul to be bitter like a chemical medicine either..

oh NO,what I am talking about..

I am speechless when It turns to My life..
I am blind when It turns to My hopes..
I am deaf when It turns to My inspiration..

oh NO,what I am babbling of..
I dont have any idea..

all can I see is a brick wall..
before,It is used to be a wide open doors with a lot of keys..
but now It is closed and there is seems like there is no doors..

all doors turns to a weary and odd walls..
all locks with missing and un-matched keys..
all windows closed tightly..
all bridge was corrupted and broken..

I am in the middle of the ride..
I dont know where to go..
I am lost in My inner heart..
all can I think right now is just break a neck of My inner heart..

I am going that far..
I try to catch It by a thunder..
but I still could not catch It..
even if I dont know who I am..

M . y . P . h . i . l . o . s . o . p . h . y

If You gonna treat Me nice..
I will treat You nice too..

If You ever try treat Me bad..
huh,I will treat You bad as well..

I will kept My promised..
If I'd never make a promise,dont ever make Me mad if You tell Me that I'd broke Your promised..
I will fullfilled My promised..
but I would never do it if I'd never promised You..

I will never pleased someone..
I will never try to get any attention..
for Me,if I wanna do..
I just do..
no need to talk loud and make people pround of Me..
huh,that is just no Me..

If I say NO..
I will never end up say YES..
huh,maybe that is just ME..
and who I am..

If You wanna hate Me..
I just hope that You will hate Me till I am dead..
You are honored to do so..
dont ever turns It back..
You can just hate Me..
I dont care..
oh,I really dont care..

stop ask Me to do something that I dont wanna do..
I hate It..

I . f . Y . o . u . S . i . c . k . K . a . y

My heart is really pain..
with IF YOU SICK KAY people around Me..
My heart is shrinking..
I try to cure It but It is seems to late..
It is useless..
It is doesnt working..

S . h . a . r . p . K . n . i . f . e

Even if my steps are sinking along with you..
Even if my hands are locked in handcuffs..
Just like my breath, I can't set it free..
Even though that cold breath has cut my heart..
Your tears have created rain..
I can't fall asleep at night..
I'll be the umbrella to stop that rain,
I'll cover the world like an eyepatch..

Sometimes my world is filled by this vicious love..
It sometimes even burns my heart
until it's black with infernal words..
Her lips are the door to heaven and kiss the hug of thorns..
Even the pain is sweet,the sweet disease, see, I'm not okay..

I'm falling deeper and deeper into You..

Fallin', caught in the trap with you..
Insane everytime I hear you callin' my name..
I'm putting it all into this game..
My brain is jumbled together in my empty heart..
I'm chain-smoking, coughin' and choking..
There's already hundreds of cups of black coffee..
I'm spinning around you while letting myself go..
Dangerously falling off the track with you..

It's like my heart is already burnt out..
I'm picking up ashes of my love like it's punishment..
My tired eyes, my easily thrown away dreams..
Regrets that are as bad as the flu, it's painful to breath..
I'm an isolated island confined within fog..
My head was filled with only you,
why have you left me ??
Where am I ??
No matter where I look,I'm standing here like an abandoned child..

Those words like a sharp knife
that stopped my tears and hardened my smile..
That look as cold as ice
that shattered my heart and froze my feet..

It seems you'll become the death of me..
I suffocate with you when I take in oxygen
But I just can't stop, don't let me go,play and hold onto me forever..

I'll run after you even when my legs are broken..
Running after shadows, even your darkness..
I'll become the shade that protects you
even when my body turns cold..
I can bear it all, even the nightmares..

Before Enter TORTURE CHAMBER

1. nak pergi sekolah..ambil majalah sekolah yang dah lame tergendala dalam perancangan~
2. nak selesaikan masalah pembikinan lesen P yang tak tahulah bila nak sudah..kalau boleh nak buat betul2 kali neyh~hehe!!=) semangat !!
3. nak fotostat semua sijil2..mungkin akan buat dalam beberapa salinan~
4. nak jumpa doktor gigi setiap hari jumaat..supaya cepat sket siap~
5. nak beli apa2 yang patut..emm,baldi??penyangkut baju??~Aiyaya,dah la baru 1st tyme!!haiz..tak tahu la~ xpe,tak perlu fikir sbb ade org laen yg perlu fikirkan pasal tu..hehe~
6. Saya mungkin akan selalu tutup telefon genggam Saya bila sudah masuk sana..haha~fokus!!
7. Semenjak dua menjak neyh..selalu kena minum air banyak~kehulu kehilir bawak botol air pink neyh !! ulser mulut yang sangat sakit..huhu~
8. Rindu Abang Saya..Abang Chapiq~=p
9. Untuk semua kawan2 Saya..maaf kalau Saya selalu tutup telefon genggam~ sudah menjadi habit !!
10.Nak pergi farmasi dan nak cari pencuci muka yang 3 dalam 1..hehe~=p nk berhenti pakai The Body Shop!!sangat leceh.. jadi,Dermalogica, Himalaya atau Clinique ??

d . U . n . N . o

happy milk plushie ~ 8D

at last, I know that what I am searching for in My life..
yup, I am gonna catch and hold It tight as I could..
yup, I am gonna try My best for It..

at last, I know and found My eternal destiny..
eventhough It sounds unpredictable and seems helpless..
but I liked It..
I wanna know My limit whether I can do or not..
yup, I am seeking for the answer..
and the answer is on Me..

Lets Flip The World !! hehe =p

Will You tell Me to have strength ??
Will You raise Me up by sparkling Your eyes ??

All of the people want it faster and more..
Oh I'm an ordinary girl..

The wind blows freely,
But I dont know where everyone is..
But have a strength,
We've made it this far..

This kind of thing is really not much,
Lets flip the world ( haha !! )

One thing I cannot figure out..
There is only one reason why this complicated world is fun ( Yes Its You !! )

Will You tell Me that You love Me ??
Will You embrace Me and laugh with Me ??

The sky is very blue,
But I dont know where everyone is going..

I like just the way You are..
You set Me free..
Set Me free My Boy..

Everything changed after You appeared..
Lets start again from now..

S a d T a n g o

What I got to do to make you mine ??

Where should I begin my search to find ??
Any clue that you might left behind..
Oh You , please give me a sign..
I can never walk away like this..
Giving up on you..

And it's true..

It's the only one thing that I'm sure..
Only one thing that is so pure..
Pure enough my heart can cure..
There so much I can endure..
Can you please come back to me ??
To my arms please..

Finding ways to take you back..
Everyday I'm asking to myself..
What's the reason that you turned your back to me ??
How am I supposed to live ??

Searching places you might be..
Anywhere I'll go if I can meet..
You and tell you how I need you here with me..
I can't live without your love..

Why can't I just give up and let go ??
When it's over and I know..
Everywhere I looked for high and low..
Couldn't find you and it shows..
That you don't want me to come to you..
Come to you again..

So I tried..
Try to live my life without you here
But what I run into is more fear..
Can you hear my words it's so sincere ??
I really need you near..
Why can't you see this is real..
Please come back !!

It's too late to say..
These words of redemption..
I should've known better..

If I can turn back the clock..
I'll do anything and everything..
All I need is just one more chance..
Let me prove my love to you..
Let me show you..
Let me tell you how much I miss you..
You're all that I need..

Rain + Hold Hands + Laugh + Run

yesterday

raining day

holding hands

laughing together

run as fast as We could

hehe!!=)

p.s I LOVE U SIS !!

( Background Music : Honey by Kara )

Keep On Smile !! =)

1NE Smileyy ~

Two smileyy ~

Biya-ne Oppa ??

ThrE3 Smileyy ~

another smileyy ~

Nol Saranghandago Oppa !! <3

( Background Music : Big Bang & 2NE1-Lollipop )

LOVE Capsules ( He N She Said )

conversations between He ( Dying Boy ) N She ~ adaptation by ' Mr.GoodBye (Korean Drama-channel 303) ' !! Background Music : Bi Rain-Sad Tango..

She : What does happy means to You ?? ( She suddenly asking He ) emm, for me drink much soju and got drunk at the same time are always make Me happy !! You ??

He : emm , for Me I am happy when I see You not in a pain..seeing You happy with Me instead of being sad..let You see Me and share with Me when I am in happy condition instead of in a tough situation..

She : ... ( She turns speechless and just staring at He without reply any words )

- THE END -

Whisper To Herself

yup ,I agree with You April..

to make people happy is so difficult..

hardly to make people satisfies on their own..

sometimes, I couldnt understand people..

I think not sometimes..

but almost everytime..

for Me as long as You happy that is more than enough..

sometimes,We have to let it go..

maybe It is not Your fate..

but most of the time,

I whisper to Myself that I am gonna be okay..

eventhough I am not..

I dont know why..

I dont have any idea about it..

dont worry April,

everything gonna be fine..

everything gonna be okay..

trust Me..

why I'd have to face many circumstances ??

why It is happen to Me ??

why Me ??

why ??

oh..everything gonna be fine soon..

just do it Your best even It is tough !!

April , Aja Aja Fighting !!

April Hwaiting !!

Malaysia Night Curtains

It is almost in the middle of Night
turns dark and darker..
the darkness of the scenery make Me calm..
the cloud and the stars combined and mixed-well with the dull sky..
KL City was fully-filled with a million of hearts..
creepy sounds of flowing curtains..
the cold atmosphere outside blast My warm-soul..
the fast moving air get in through My skeleton bones..
the blanket hugged Me tightly as if I am about to run away..

I walked alone with nothing in My left and right..
My HK-necklace touch My heart..
ohh..It is My follower as if It is My Die-Hard Fan..
with My hair untied
flowing-free happily but opposite to My thinking mind..
My mind was messed up with the unsolved heavy memories..
My shoelace was untied and not tidy..

I looked up and saw many stars..

with My left palm and left fingers at My chin and My lips..

I felt amazed..

I wish that I could hold and grab the stars..

I wish that I could touch the wall of widest sky..

eventhough It is just My wishful thinking..

Four - One = Thr3E

yesterday..

I'd already planned with My Sis earlier to asked Her for accompanied Me to do some task..

forced My Bro Shahril to wake up from sleep ( It tooks 30 mins to wake Him up and spends 20 mins to wait for Him to take a bathed - 20mins..ohh,so impressed !! bravo..usually almost a hour~trust Me!! ohh,better stop mengumpat Him..BIYANE OPPA !! )

Lets Go Oppa N Noona ~~~

13:00++

1st Destination-heading to Sri Rampai Photo-shop for make a passport copy photo..8 photos costs Me MYR16~okies!! We R done..

13:30++

2nd Destination-next destination is Taman Melawati..go there to renew My L-license~wao,so fast..dont have to wait so long..do it that day also can get that day..( Uncle Driving School,I'd already renew My L-license !! =p )

14:00++

3rd Destination-heading to Desa Setapak Section2 for photostate My Old-Expired L-license N My Brand-New L-license..

( I MISS U BRO CHAPIQ !! )

Chapiq,biscuit N shower foam nice meh ?? I picked for You oh..take care at Camp ya~fast fast back Home !! Me gonna miss You liao lo..Me N Sis dun hv driver nemore~hehe =p

Mr.GoodBye

conversation between Mr.GoodBye N Mr.Doctor

Mr.GoodBye : Doctor,can I ask You a favour ??

Mr.Doctor : yes,sure can..what is it ??

Mr.GoodBye : could You stop My electrical (SA Node-Artificial Pacemaker ) ticking heart ?? I can hear It..It is so obvious..

Mr.Doctor : if I do so..You will die..I cant !!

Mr.GoodBye :these sound of ticking is always reminds Me of My life..I just feel like My time is running out..could You stop the sound when I am with someone that I LOVE ??

Mr.Doctor : huh ?? (He is confused )

Mr.GoodBye : please..I just ask You for that..please stop the sound when I am with someone that I LOVE !!

H1N1 Symptoms ?? LOLz ~

have You ever deleted His phone number ??
even You know that You memorised His number ??

have You ever went to saloon to cut Your hair ??
You think that You will forget Him just like a piece of hair ??

have You ever have a photo album that taken by both of You ??
You think that memory of Him just can easily been erased by put it into a big box ??

have You try to stay away from the place that You usually met ??
You think that It is the right step to forget about Him ??

have You ever feel comfortable wearing black all day long ??
You think It shows Your broken heart ??

have You ever eat much and force Yourself to eat even You feel fully-filled ??

have You ever off Your cellphone then told Your friend that It is broken ??

You think that He will know that You all alone by doing that ??

1 ( way ) 2 ( say ) 3 ( words ) 4 ( You ) = 1 4 3

1 4 3 !!

You know I still love you
And it will never change ??

I want nobody, nobody but you..
I don’t want anyone else..
I can’t have anyone but you..
I want nobody nobody, nobody nobody..

Why are you trying to push me away ??
I hate it..
You ignore what I am saying..
Why are you trying to send me to other guys ??
Why are you doing this ??

Saying that this is for my own good..
Saying that you are just not enough..
Stop it right now, you know me well enough..
Why are you forcing what you know I don’t want ??
Why can’t you understand that it makes no sense ??
How can I be happy without you ??

I’m satisfied, I’m happy..
If I have you I don’t want for anything else..
Who do you want me to meet and be happy with ??
I can’t be happy away from your side..

Back to the days..
When we were so young
And happy and free..
Everything was just like a dream..
I want to go back to those times..

Trick O Treat ??

today evening..

I'd was treat My Siblings ( Shahril Oppa,Noona Reen,Shaffiq Oppa ) McDee~

because I just wanna celebrate My happy-day with them !!

I'd just passes My JPJ Test..

grabbed that chance before It is too latte~LOLz!!=p

trick or treat ??

no hidden-trick okies !!

( how Shahril Oppa ?? nice meh ?? )

Bubbye ~ T_T

Selamat Tinggal..

Bubbye..
Tata..

Chapiq Oppa,I'll miss You oh !!haiz~
take care ya !!
Aja Aja fighting !!
Chapiq Oppa Hwaiting !!

Bassya !!
hehe!=p

( He is going back to His University of Malaya tonight )

I Will Never Let You See Me Cry !!

I'm not the type to get my heart broken..

I'm not the type to get upset and cry..

Cause I never leave my heart open..

Never hurts me to say goodbye..

Relationships don't get deep to me..

Never got the whole in love thing

And someone can say they love me truely

But at the time it didn't mean a thing..

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round

And deep inside, my tears i'll drown..

I'm losing grip, what's happening..

I stray from love, this is how I feel..

This time was different..

Felt like, I was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife..

When you walked out of my life..

Now i'm, in this condition

And i've, got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what you'll never see me cry !!

How did I get here with you, i'll never know..

I never meant to let it get so, persona..

lAfter all I tried to do, stay away from loving you..

I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know

And I won't let it show..

You won't see me cry !!

My Twin + My BSF

My Twin + My BSF ( Best Sister Forever ) was back..this evening Me and My Bro Shaffiq went to KL Sentral to picked Her up~miss Her so much!!( She went to Indonesia for a trip for almost one week )..after that We ate KFC at Mid Valley for a lunch..look2 N see2 at The Gardens~My Bro want to buy something for His friend ( Birthday Gift ) , so My Sis was recommened a sports bag for His because of His friends like to go to Gym..plz dont ask Me,I dunno anything about boys's stuff~
( this situation where My Bro Shaffiq asked for My idea-then I'd told Him that ' How about sneakers ?? ' ) sneakers N gym ?? match ?? emm..dunno~

Wednesday O Wet-Ness Day ??

Sweating + Raining + NOT-2-Crying = Wet-Ness Day
I am so happy..finally, all My efforts was worthfully..already paid off !!
I already pass My JPJ TEST !! wahaha~=) fuh !!

sweating for a hopes..
[1] I am really scared at first..
[2] kyaaa,I got many friends ( Cool-Soon Book Che Che , Gorgeous-Sasha , funny-Sin Yie and many-more but forgot to asked Their name )..thanks for Soon Book Che Che coz treats Me mix fruit~luv luv You!!
[3] raining for awhile..sugoi~
[4] waiting eventhough tiring..got A-Lot of fun with them..

to Mr.JPJ,
I am sorry..
I can read deep down from Your bottom of Your heart..
dont be scared oh..
I am not going to kill You oh..hehe!!=p
anyway,thanks a lot coz give Me a chance and let Me pass with a flying colours..
kamsahamnida..next month, I will buy for You something if I meet You !!
It is not bribe okies !!

coversation between Me N Mr.JPJ after just finished ' Driving On Da Road Session '
Mr.JPJ : emm , from what I've observed..unfortunately that You've to come for next week to repeat JPJ Test~the way You driving not really smooth and not really well..
Me : emm,okay, thanks Mister..(with a sad-sad look and slow-down voice..I am forcing My tears to not falling )

after He gave Me a pink-coloured piece of paper, I was straightly went to a toilet to called My Mama to told Her that I'd failed for a 2nd test..(INSIDE TOILET) while I am on the phone , got 2 girls in that toilet then without thinking I'd asked them what is pass-marks for ' Driving On The Road Test ' ?? ( eventhough I know-just wanna make sure that I am not mis-heard during driving lesson that day ) They said 16 in synchronize way..wahaha !!=) I'd make a phone called and dialled My Mama's number while trying to convinced Myself by opened and looked at that pink-coloured paper from My rust-brown sling bag..What?? I'd passed ?? My Mama answered Her phone and asked Me that what I'd got for My Test..then I'd replied~( Ma,I'd passed..!! I got 17/20-emm,cukup2 makan ) I am so happy..I'd felt like I'd got straight A's in My SPM~LOLz =p..that 2 girls laughing at Me and wishing Me congratulation after curi2 dengar My conversation between Me N My Mama~

Bukit , Side Parking N 3Pointer ??
emm, ~NO COMMENT~

Can I Be Your No.2 Lover ??

If She love You..

more than My love towards You..

I will sacrifies and I will let You go..

eventhough , I know that I will hurt at the end of the day..

If everything is difference..

You are not someone that I adore..

but My hearts already pick You..

eventhough , I know that You will never leave Her..

Can I be Your Number 2 lover ??

please make Me happy , that is all I need..

eventhough , I know that You will never be mine..

Butterflies In My Stomach

tomorrow is My 2nd JPJ Driving Test..LOLz~ 2nd ?? hehe!!=)

Oh Em Gee~

I am so scared !!

I am begging for a pray..

I am hoping for a sudden miracle..

I am doing to the fullest..

NO PAIN NO GAIN !!

Semoga Berjaya April !!

U Can Do It April !!

April Hwaiting !!

Aja Aja Fighting !!

Cayok Cayok April !!

Gambatteh April !!

( I hope that I can do it My best at Three Pointer )

S.O.S

Pre-Diploma in Science ??

Diploma in Science ??

Diploma in Nursing ??

Diploma in Accounting ??

Talking Crap ??

oh NO..

eventhough I am falling to the ground many times..

eventhough I am crying until there is no tears falling..

eventhough I am such a fool to My Parents's eyes..

eventhough I am desperate for a dream that seems difficult for Me to catch..

oh NO..

GIVE UP still not My words !!

I will waking up from the place that I am falling..

I will stop crying and wiped My tears using My sweaty hands..

I will prove to them that I am neither a loser nor a fool..

I will catch My dreams..

oh NO..

even everyone pulling Me backwards..

even everyone insulting Me again and again..

even everyone forcing Me to just ended up give up..

even everyone looks down on Me..

even everyone under-estimated Me..

even everyone teasing Me..

GIVE UP still not My words !!

I am crying in the middle on the night..

every night , My tears become My Bestie Friends..

accompanying Me..

oh NO..

I am not like My any siblings..

I am a lot different..

I am hard-headed..( thats what My Sis said )

I am straight-forward..( thats what My Sis said )

I dont like talking about the good things that I have done to My Parent..I'd rather keep quiet than to be proud of My Myself..

I know that My Parent dont believe what I may saying to them..so,there is no point to talking crap without a proof..

Can I Called You ' MINE ' ??

I feel a lot relieved now..
I feel like I had just solved hard mathematics problems..
I feel great and in a good mood..

someone got asked Me,
Phoebe : is there is true love ??
April : yes,probably..
Phoebe : I dont believe in true LOVE..(frankly..)
April : True LOVE doesnt happen to You but that doesnt mean that It is not EXIST !!

True LOVE is not something that can be defined in a sentence..
It is as strapping as much as it is unconditional, comforting as it is reassuring, powerful as it is everlasting, and anything but superficial..
It is simply wonderful..
Supposedly, the best things in life are free if only that were true..
True LOVE takes sacrifice, persistence, and patience, caring and endurance..
most of all, acceptance..
To want the best for someone, to be there when you are needed, and to give anything towards what you believe in takes all..
It is not true when it is not genuine..
I say this to all women and men..
To truly love is to give your heart, your spirit, and your soul into what you believe to be worth what it takes to make the pain worth the pleasure..

True LOVE is above and beyond measure..
True LOVE is genuine..
True LOVE is divine..
True LOVE is yours and True LOVE is mine..

When N Why ??

could anyone teach Me how to smile ??
I feel awkward when I am trying to smile..
I feel difference..
I feel hard..

My lips freezed..

I was missing My smile..
Where does It goes ??

I was trying to smile but It doesnt show that expression..
I was trying to smile but It is tough for Me..

I dont know..
since when and why..
I just only can sigh along falling tears..

Don't Look Too Good Nor Talk Too Wise

If You KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT
some people said that You looks like You have no brain..

If You TALKATIVE
some people said that You looks like You wanna catch some attention..

If You SMILE
some people said that You looks fake..

If You CRY
some people said that You looks like a loser..

so,DONT LOOK TOO GOOD NOR TALK TOO WISE..DONT SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS~NO HARM TO BE HUMBLE~anyway,WHO CARES??JUST BE YOURSELF..YOU KNOW YOURSELF BETTER !! ryte??

Iljimae

Iljimae-Lee Jun Ki~

ILJIMAE is a Korean Drama ( ATTENTION : It is ADDICTIVE !! )
8:30pm-9:30pm on 8TV~

Iljimae is a mysterious, black-swathed thief who robs from corrupt government officials and gives to the poor. He steals not only material treasures but also people, be they wrongfully held prisoners or criminals hiding from judgment. At the scene of each robbery, he leaves a small painting of a branch of red plum blossoms called a " meh hwa ". The citizens support Iljimae while the king and the nobility try to catch him and find his identity.
Geom is the son of a virtuous nobleman who is a trustworthy supporter to the king and a central member of the secret organization, Hanowheh, of important nobles and the king as their leader. He moves away from the capital to live peacefully with his wife, daughter, and baby son in the country. Years later, he returns to the capital to meet with another member to discuss the state of matters. However, a mysterious rumor is spread that he is plotting to overthrow the king.

because of this Korean Drama lor..My Mama and Me sit infront of TV at 8:30pm sharp~hehe!!=)It is really addictive and It is contains a lot of indulgence humor..=p so,nobody can turn to any channel until 9:30pm~stick on 8tv..and say NO to NEWS !! wikiwiki =p Sis Reen,watch up !! You will become Our next victim because Bro Shahril and Bro Shaffiq already been infected of this virus..

S . i . g . h

My weary soul had turn to damaged..
I am going to fixed It with a brand new hope..
I'd hated when people suddenly turns from someone that I knew before to someone that I am not sure..
that is the most things that I'd disliked if It is happen..

dont show Your evilness to a wrong and idiot people..
It is seems unfair and sounds unnecessary though..

only sigh can make Me feels a bit relieved..
eventhough It is just a sigh..
that is become My new therapy..
and I am used to It..

I wish that I am still dreaming even It is a reality..
because I am not that strong..
My heart in a cronic condition..
but dont worry..

I am gonna fix It by My Own even It is impossible to Me..
I am gonna be okay even It is just a lie..
I am gonna be fine even I am not sure about It..

Angel Vs Devil ??

Isnt It tough ??
Now everyone is waiting and betting on my vision..
Your gaze is on fire with jealously and betrayal..
I remember that time, I had a small
Time of happiness in my sweaty hands
In a open spot of a worn out notebook, filling my mind

As I go and going through times of agony
Tossing in bed I guard the night with rhymes
As I go on the deafening and darkening sound make me go crazy

The order of winning made want to get out
The schoolwork that strangled me and the weary soul

From then my life was renewed

Even if you're furious at God for overwhelming your family
Even if the world steals away your friends and your love betrays you

I instead used the black tears of my pen
I spit out the drops of my flow

Throwing everything away and letting it go in a dead end street

I can't forget that feeling even if
I turn around and look back Though I can sigh
I can never give up on my dreams
In a corrupt period,
I chased for success
I will forever yearn for critics to cross over
Even if you nail my hand this is all
I got A little bit of hope and one heart
Countless memories and inside assets
Irresponsibility one can't see from one's pride
No one can ever take me down
Growing up and maturing with shortfalls being added

As the time passes and my friends go to college
As for me I go underground in desperation

Though we sweat the same with all we have left
But in reality I'm a part-time worker (to PC room)
Left behind and putting regret behind

I once again Say I'm going to go back but my future aspirations are left
I withstand going back again

Regret chases me in order to capture me
It's been almost a years now

This life and passion is getting becoming distorted
Though I feel it

I continue to run endlessly
With a pen I run over the pages

nae kkoomeul p'ogeemot'ae ?? naneun jeoldaero !!
( Give up on my dream ?? I won’t ever !! )

Her ( Forget-Me-Not ) Day !! =)

Yedsterday, after I went for an appoinment with My dentist..then,straightly heading for wedding ceremony..
Yesterday could be My Neighbour's sweetest and memorable day..
It is Her Wedding Day..hehe!!=)
but so sorry coz there is no picture was taken by Me..haiz~there is story behind that !! dun hav to tell lo..
the colour theme was ' orange ' in colour.. first, I thought the colour theme is ' Maroon ' because based on the invitation cards..
hehe!!=) actually, It is My habit..to know the theme colour~
dunno why oh!! sounds weirdo to some people..
but for Me , It is a MUST to know..LOL!! watever lor April !!

The Bride so gorgeous and the Bridegroom so charming..Bride and Bridegroom was
so match and perfect for each other..that is from what I've observed~hehe!!=)

CHECKED LIST
cheh,have checked list meh??wikiwiki =p
1. many delicious dished were served that day..yummy2~I LOVE eating session..wahaha~5stars for that..LOL~=p
2. the ceremory was not too crowded , so-so only~great then !!
3. the place that ceremory was held a quite specific for Me coz We can see the Bride and Bridegroom clearly from My eating table..
4. the decoration on the place where Bride and Bridegroom sat was so hilarious..so adorable and fabulous~5stars for that too !!
5. while eating..eating and eating..suddenly saw Bro Shahrul..He is My Bro's twin~hehe!!=)kidding..He is My Bro Shahril's Best Friend~I called them as a twin because there is no much difference in their name and both of them are in same age..Shahrul n Shahril~wahaha!!=p
6. I also met My Sis's Best Friend there..Sis Intan~She is with Her Mum!!Oh Em Gee,Her Mum and Sis Intan looks really a lot similar..I always say it to My Mama unstoppable..and My Mama replied back as ' of coz lor..because Both of Them are flesh and blood '~hehe!!=) April Baka-Pabo madness..Hey April Grow Up !! Sis Reen , if You here..It could be a lot much fun and clumsiness~wahaha=p..so,because You are not here~minus 3stars..=p
7. goody bag was given during ' self-service queue ' session..inside that bag,there is whitey egg,pudding and potato chips..emm,not bad~7stars for that !!hehe~

Draw The Map Of Future

We start to move for the next stage..
We keep on walking..
On this endless, straight road..
We keep on shining..

I wonder how I'll be able to..
Make a start again..
From this point..

I looked up at the sky and smiled softly..
I heard, "Don't be afraid, it's all right"..
I looked up at the sky and tears rolled from my eyes suddenly..
Even the scar left in my past is dear to me now..

I hear the signal sound for the future..
Our eyes meet each other..

My heart is throbbed with excitement..
I wonder what I'll choose and draw..
And what kind of map will be made up..

When we feel the wind, Let's clench our hands tightly..
Because we don't need many words any more..
When we feel the wind, Let's make a strong step..
Let's go with the same speed, looking at the same scenery..

My Pass Word ?? =p

Don't tell me that you miss me every hour..
I don't understand scripted dating lines..
Don't tell me over a hundred times you love me..
You're ruining our relationship..
Girls aren't as naive as you think..
Making us happy is slightly different..

Express your love 4 times a day..
Laugh 8 times..
Kiss me 6 times..
It's the only password to my heart..
No one else can know it..
Only you can have me..
You are my secret boy, boy, boy..

Don't appear out of nowhere..
I don't always get surprised..
When you see my face without make-up..
I even get mad..
Guys aren't as fragile as girls..
They believe they can do whatever they want and it'll be alright..

Don't give up because it's too hard..
Understand that I only want you..
Girls are always deceived by flirty guysI hope you become someone who can console me after you trouble me..

Someday My Prince Will Come

Ohh..

when I think of You..

I will suddenly carve a smile on My lips..

ohh..

when I think of You..

I wondering what are You doing now..

Gee Gee Gee =)

It is kinda funny but I always repeating doing that..

It is become My habit..

Your smile..

cheering My day..

You voice..

oh no..make Me cant wait to see You..

You eyes..

make My cheeks blushing..

Gee Gee Gee =)

but sometimes this feeling make Me feel embarassed..

did I fallin in love ??

oh no..I think that I do..

oh yeah..

Gee Gee Gee =)

let We holding hands while walking..

let We wearing same colour of cloth when We going out together..

ohh..ohh..ohh..It is a lot of fun !!

You called Me ' Mine ' and I called You ' Mine '..

You called Yourself as ' Yours ' and I called Myself as ' Yours '..

Gee Gee Gee =)