Tears Dont Fall

cant wait to further study !!

Am gonna miss a lotz of people and I can surely crying all night coz missing My Parents N My Siblings..huhu T_T

hey April,grow up !!

It Cant B Removed Lyke A Tatoo

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like a smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind (say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day
without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless

What is it about that person next to you, did She make you cry ??
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely ??
I am worried,
I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to

If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
Always be happy with him,
(so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever
I pray for you

ps : To My broken pink hp casing..My Abah bought It for Me but only can stand for a day~the next day,sudden terjatuh N tercabut !! hehe=p

Gee Gee Gee Gee Gee ~~~=p

this story of Mine sounds really3 funny when I thinking of It..

It is happen yesterday..
the situation :
My Mama watching teevee N sit beside My Sis
My Sis online on the couch infront of teevee
Me stand-sit ( act,I am not sure whether Iam sitting or standing at that time=p) infront of My Mama

suddenly My Sis open My blog sites N the song come out..
Me sudden acting like in the Music Video that They do It N do lips-sync of My Blog's song infront of My Mama..hehe =) I am such a silly N childish girl~
N My Mama laughing..so cutey~

My Blog's Song Girl's Generation/SNSD : Gee

(nways,what was happen to this computer-today is My 1st time using this computer after be repaired..all Epik High song sounds like dangdut version~oh NO,especially Their song called 1minute 1second..to obvious~I had problem wif diz speaker maybe..a LOT different than something that I usually heard from My Abah's laptop~hehe =p Their beat is sick~This song used to be sad N poetic but now turns to dangdut version..wakaka =p I hate diz speaker !!)

Not A Princess No Glass Slippers

Maybe it wasn't there to begin with
that fun, sad, and kind story..

Maybe it was a dream or illusion..
Maybe I slept too long..

In the season when I can feel
the smell of summer in the blue sky..
I remember a face..

The scenery of the city began to distort..
I searched for sunglasses
so I could lose all the colors..

What I wanted to be ??
Not a princess..
What I wanted to have ??
Not glass slippers..

What I wanted to be ??
I wanted to be with you..
What I wanted to have ??
Was your smiling face..

The wind and the smell of summercut through today's sky..
It's ok so I agreed
Because if it's fate like we said
then we can meet again somewhere..

la la la la la la..
It's ok so I agreed..
la la la la la la..
Because I'm so strong..

2day N ' YES ' terday

Today's happy face, today's sad face..
Yesterday's weak self, tomorrow's strong self..
If it's you, who are you showing it to ?? If it's me, who should I show it to ??

Time is sometimes a cruel thing,
but the present is made by that cruelty..

Unceasingly searching for someone, an instant of release
soon triumphs over the visiting fear..

As I don't even notice the flowers shaking before my feet,
I can't even look at myself in the mirror..

Today's happy face, today's sad face..
Yesterday's healed wounds and today's deeply opened wounds..
If it's you, who are you showing it to ?? If it's me, who should I show it to ??

The sanity and insanity that I was given and are mine only,
Both exist together without negating the other..

Futile things, spilled things, and useless things..
I'll choose with confidence, so I am of myself..

Because I have always defined happiness with my own standards..

Today's happy face, today's sad face..
Even if yesterday's healed wounds have opened today,
If it's you, who can you show it to ?? If it's me, I want to show it to that person..

L . o . l . l . i . p . o . p

I dont want My soul to be tastless like a plain water..
I dont want My soul to be sweet like a lollipop ..

I dont want My soul to be bitter like a chemical medicine either..

oh NO,what I am talking about..

I am speechless when It turns to My life..
I am blind when It turns to My hopes..
I am deaf when It turns to My inspiration..

oh NO,what I am babbling of..
I dont have any idea..

all can I see is a brick wall..
before,It is used to be a wide open doors with a lot of keys..
but now It is closed and there is seems like there is no doors..

all doors turns to a weary and odd walls..
all locks with missing and un-matched keys..
all windows closed tightly..
all bridge was corrupted and broken..

I am in the middle of the ride..
I dont know where to go..
I am lost in My inner heart..
all can I think right now is just break a neck of My inner heart..

I am going that far..
I try to catch It by a thunder..
but I still could not catch It..
even if I dont know who I am..

M . y . P . h . i . l . o . s . o . p . h . y

If You gonna treat Me nice..
I will treat You nice too..

If You ever try treat Me bad..
huh,I will treat You bad as well..

I will kept My promised..
If I'd never make a promise,dont ever make Me mad if You tell Me that I'd broke Your promised..
I will fullfilled My promised..
but I would never do it if I'd never promised You..

I will never pleased someone..
I will never try to get any attention..
for Me,if I wanna do..
I just do..
no need to talk loud and make people pround of Me..
huh,that is just no Me..

If I say NO..
I will never end up say YES..
huh,maybe that is just ME..
and who I am..

If You wanna hate Me..
I just hope that You will hate Me till I am dead..
You are honored to do so..
dont ever turns It back..
You can just hate Me..
I dont care..
oh,I really dont care..

stop ask Me to do something that I dont wanna do..
I hate It..

I . f . Y . o . u . S . i . c . k . K . a . y

My heart is really pain..
with IF YOU SICK KAY people around Me..
My heart is shrinking..
I try to cure It but It is seems to late..
It is useless..
It is doesnt working..

S . h . a . r . p . K . n . i . f . e

Even if my steps are sinking along with you..
Even if my hands are locked in handcuffs..
Just like my breath, I can't set it free..
Even though that cold breath has cut my heart..
Your tears have created rain..
I can't fall asleep at night..
I'll be the umbrella to stop that rain,
I'll cover the world like an eyepatch..

Sometimes my world is filled by this vicious love..
It sometimes even burns my heart
until it's black with infernal words..
Her lips are the door to heaven and kiss the hug of thorns..
Even the pain is sweet,the sweet disease, see, I'm not okay..

I'm falling deeper and deeper into You..

Fallin', caught in the trap with you..
Insane everytime I hear you callin' my name..
I'm putting it all into this game..
My brain is jumbled together in my empty heart..
I'm chain-smoking, coughin' and choking..
There's already hundreds of cups of black coffee..
I'm spinning around you while letting myself go..
Dangerously falling off the track with you..

It's like my heart is already burnt out..
I'm picking up ashes of my love like it's punishment..
My tired eyes, my easily thrown away dreams..
Regrets that are as bad as the flu, it's painful to breath..
I'm an isolated island confined within fog..
My head was filled with only you,
why have you left me ??
Where am I ??
No matter where I look,I'm standing here like an abandoned child..

Those words like a sharp knife
that stopped my tears and hardened my smile..
That look as cold as ice
that shattered my heart and froze my feet..

It seems you'll become the death of me..
I suffocate with you when I take in oxygen
But I just can't stop, don't let me go,play and hold onto me forever..

I'll run after you even when my legs are broken..
Running after shadows, even your darkness..
I'll become the shade that protects you
even when my body turns cold..
I can bear it all, even the nightmares..

Before Enter TORTURE CHAMBER

1. nak pergi sekolah..ambil majalah sekolah yang dah lame tergendala dalam perancangan~
2. nak selesaikan masalah pembikinan lesen P yang tak tahulah bila nak sudah..kalau boleh nak buat betul2 kali neyh~hehe!!=) semangat !!
3. nak fotostat semua sijil2..mungkin akan buat dalam beberapa salinan~
4. nak jumpa doktor gigi setiap hari jumaat..supaya cepat sket siap~
5. nak beli apa2 yang patut..emm,baldi??penyangkut baju??~Aiyaya,dah la baru 1st tyme!!haiz..tak tahu la~ xpe,tak perlu fikir sbb ade org laen yg perlu fikirkan pasal tu..hehe~
6. Saya mungkin akan selalu tutup telefon genggam Saya bila sudah masuk sana..haha~fokus!!
7. Semenjak dua menjak neyh..selalu kena minum air banyak~kehulu kehilir bawak botol air pink neyh !! ulser mulut yang sangat sakit..huhu~
8. Rindu Abang Saya..Abang Chapiq~=p
9. Untuk semua kawan2 Saya..maaf kalau Saya selalu tutup telefon genggam~ sudah menjadi habit !!
10.Nak pergi farmasi dan nak cari pencuci muka yang 3 dalam 1..hehe~=p nk berhenti pakai The Body Shop!!sangat leceh.. jadi,Dermalogica, Himalaya atau Clinique ??