ABAH is My SUPER DUPPER HERO =P

My Abah's dream bicycle racing~

hehe!!=)

cyclist??

My Abah really3 adore everything about bicycle racing..

He is big fan of bicycle racing..

really addicted !!

hehe!!=)

He is already buy a cycling suit..

Abah !! how about the bicycle racing ??

didnt buy yet??

when I grown up..

I buy one for You okies ??

hehe!!=)

Adik SAYANG Abah !!

Adik LOVE Abah !!

nol SARANG handago..Appa !!

AISHITERU !! muahhhhhhxxx ~~

April HEART July

She is like a bright sunshine..
She is like a circular moon..
She is like a solar system..
She is like a uncountable stars..
She is..
definitely..

for Me..
She is a part of My heart..
She is half of My heart..
She is nearer part in My body..
She is there when My heart beating..
She is there when My heart pumping blood..
She is there..
always there..I can feel Her existance !!

without her..I am dying..

She is always here..even She is not here..
I can feel her..even She is not here..

her voice always cheer up My day..her voice just like an angel..
her smile always make Me melt..always do..

She is great sister..
She is..
yes..She is My Greatest Sister in the universe !!

There Is No Glue To Mend The Broken Heart !!

You could be my unintended..
Choice to live my life extended..
You could be the one I will always LOVE..
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions..
You could be the one I will always LOVE..

I will be there as soon as I can..
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before..
First there was the one who challenged..
All my dreams and all my balance..
He could never be as good as you..

You could be my unintended..
Choice to live my life extended..
You should be the one Ill always LOVE..

Missing Piece of Puzzle

In this feels of anxiety, I am described It in the way of writing..

I am turns speechless and muted and My feeling only can be expressed by the way of writing..

I am painting and drawing the loneliness..

I dont get It if I am not with You..

I just cannot accept It when I am missing of You..

eventhough , I wake up in the morning..

eventhough , the wheather seems perfect and the scenery looks unbelievable..

but It could be dull and empty when You are not here with Me..

accompanying Me..I will feel miserable..

without Your LOVE..I feels anxiety..

without Your CARE..I feels bad about Myself..

without You..I am nothing..

without You..I am dying..

this heavy feelings that I feels right now..

My inner heart cannot barely keep this heavy feelings anymore..

I just dont get It..

feeling of anxiety keeps haunting Me..

I am scared that You gonna leave Me..

and You gonna leave Me alone..

without waiting for the death separates us..

I am really dont know how I am gonna face It..

when It is really happen..

Pathetic Illusion

I see You looking at Me..even You not !!

I see You smiling at Me..even You not !!

I see You saving Me..even You not !!

You are My Hero from My eyes..

You are My Prince Charming from My eyes..

Ohh..emm(sigh..) It is just a thought..

I am still hoping..

I am still waiting..

I am still wishing..

for You to realise that I am here..

It is such a pathetic illusion..

You brought an umbrella when I am walking alone back home in the rain..

You hug Me thightly when I felt down..

You call Me and told Me that You really LOVE Me..

You look into My eyes and replied with a sincere smile..

You staring the way I walk and followed My foot step at My back..

You wrote a poem about Me..

You really worried about Me when I am not picked up Your Called..

You brought Me to the place that You likes to go..

You come and wipe all My tears..

ohh..It is just a thoughts..

ohh..It is just My Pathetic Illusion..

ohh..It is make no sense at all..

Even If You Don't Know Who I Am !!

even if I can only see You from far..

even if I cannot touch You..

even if I cannot talk to You..

even if I lost a sight of You..

even if I lost a step of You..

You dont have to worry !!

Your image still in My mind and never fade away..

because I am Your number ONE fan..

ya..You are My star and I am Your Die-Hard Fan..

baby please !! take My hand !!

I will always there whenever You need Me..

I will always there..

please trust Me..even You wont !!

please believe Me..even You wont !!

this could be My first-sight LOVE..

I am probably fallen in LOVE in psycotic LOVE..Oh Yes..probably !!

I am probably fallen in LOVE in idiotic LOVE..Oh Yes..probably !!

even if You dont know who I am !!

ohh..I am so pathetic !!

Not My Cup Of Tea ??

many things that has to be done next month..
life must go on..
never stop until the last breathe..
hehe!!=)

I am so confused and blurred about My life right now..

still dont know what is right and good for Myself..
still searching for another light..
still seeking for a right path to travelled along..
emm..(sigh..)
" dont giving up on Your hopes April !!..Aja Aja Fighting..April Hwaiting!! "
writing blog while listening to song called Fly by Epik High..
Tablo Oppa, I can Fly !! I can Fly sky high high !!

giving up??
oh..not Me !! really not Me !!
I am in the middle of the ride..
many difficulties that I may face..

am I strong ??
am I can do It ??
am I easily quit ??
oh..I am strong !!
oh..I can do It !!
oh..I am not a quitter !!

I may look weak outside..

I may look like a hopeless outside..

I may look like a useless outside..

I may look like a loser outside..

emm..yo~watever..

nobody knows inside of Me..

I dont care if You gonna judge Me..

ya..I really dont care..

because You are nobody..

ARASTAO ??

Speak Louder Than Words ??

stand up for Yourself..

You know that You are better than anyone else..

much much better..

trust Yourself..

believe in Yourself..

no matter what others said about You behind Your back..

hey hey hey!!

yell and shout to them..

' who are You , Busybody?? It is not Your business Dumbass " !!

just do what You think good for Yourself..

and stop thinking whether It is good for others or not..

as long You happy..

hey hey hey !!

It is You life..not Their life ~

be blind..

be deaf..

be muted..

to stupid people that try to pulls You down..

be Yourself..

stand up and held hand high as You can..

speak louder but do not " speak louder than words "

be frank but do not be fake !!

In greedy gulps of gluttony..

Their glow tainted with shame,

Dimming with age..

Blind with rage,

Not a word will change minds..

In this lifetime,

And the next,

Even the stars are jealous of

What we have..

Of us..

But maybe we weren't so different..

to Anonymous

sorry sorry sorry sorry ~~
I really do not know who You are..
stop chasing Me..
oh oh oh oh ~~
You better stop It..
because I do not know who You are..
go away and just live Your life..

let Me be Myself..
stop stop stop stop ~~
do not disturb Me..
I do not know who You are and..
I do not need You..
so so so so ~~
TAKE MY WORDS CAREFULLY OR YOU WANT ME SPELL IT FOR YOU THEN ??

to BAKA+PABO-ness creature~

I Do Hate R !!

today,emm..
My Friend,Mischa and I had planned to went to Times Squared but We had to cancelled all that because Her BF want to have a lunch with Her..haiz~so irritating and annoying..We planned It for a week but..haiz~I fell like I am going to kill Her BF straight away after She gave Me a call !! Thank God that I have no BF in My previous life since 1991..LOL~ I just dont like It..

so,everything was ruined and haiz~~(sigh..) after a few minutes She called Me but at that time I was take a bathed..so cant answered~after I just finished with a hygiene session!! I looked at My CellPhone..what??4 missed call??emm..I tried to gave a call but My CellPhone had infected ' Battery Cronic ' early on the morning..so, I just wait for Her to call Me back~I lovin It !! wahahaha (Devil's laugh..)


after few minutes,She called Me back..She told Me that how if We just went to JJ(made It up from 12am-3pm)??and after She have a lunch with Her BF then We went to Carefour for Our 2nd trip??

then I replied It as " emm..okie~sounds creepy interesting !! hehe "..(what??JJ again?? )

so,We (Mischa+Tracy+Me) dropped there at 12++am..enter JJ's main entrence an shop for 2nd time..wahaha!!=) I managed to grabbed 2 t-shirt that only costs Me MYR 10 each cloth..hooray!! I love shopping time in a bargain price..frankly to say,It is soooo damn cheap !! Oh My Gosh..at the 1st,I just do not think to buy anyting because My Mama just bought Me cloths last Sunday~but accidentally,I just fallin in love with these light blue shirt that wrote ' My Daddy Rocks ' on It..LOL~sow damn lurve It !! and also grabbed one turqoise in colour shirt..hehe!!=) please dont tell My Mama..She would kill Me if She find out bout It~Aiyaya!!

after that Me eat eat eat at Food Court..only Me!! because Tracy told Me that She want to eat at McDee~so,need to accompanied Her afterwards while Mischa dating with Her BF at KFC~

went to Carefour,buy a few things then back home..sow tiring day~hehe!!=) but I like It a LOT..now My hands feel lil bit itchy and My toes turn to have a rashes ( caused more walking than sitting..probably~LOL ) ~I DO HATE R !! R is for RASHES !!

-SIGNING OFF-

Art Sculpture Momento of Ours

tired of waiting..
abundance feeling..


Sculpture of Yours..
this feeling of ignorace..
It is becomes a habit..


when I turned on the radio..
every songs sounding like envy Me..
when I tuned on the television..
every drama seems like presenting My life..

what was happen to Me..
does It enough if I just turning off the radio and television??
does It enough for Me to delete You from My thought of You??

No..No..No..
I begging for a mercy..
but no one hear Me..

when I with You
I destroyed all the bridge and closed all the open door because I know that I only need You
I break all the wall that separates us
I kept all the promise wisely

I wish that the ticking of clocks will suddenly stop when I'm with You..
I wish that the world belongs to only You and Me..

We draw all the beautifying love like as a priceless artistic..
We paint It with a colourfull colours of hopes as a morning rainbow..
We write a story of ours like a happy ending fairytale..

are We ended up easily as one two three??
are We made up just to finish the art sculpture??

the love korean drama make You cry and hard to stop??
does It bring impact to Your emotional till Your life seem turns darker and darker??
the sad love song make You wanna commit suicide??
does It make You lip-sync and at some part You sing It lounder and louder??
the epic writing make You feel miserable of Your own self??
does It make You trying hard to described It eventhough It hurts You deeper and deeper??

as far as I stare
the memory of You turns closer and closer..
as fast as I walk
the tiredness and memory of You seems chasing Me..
as deep as I breathe
the name of You suddenly come out along the sigh..

eventhough I close My eyes..I still can see You standing infront of Me clearly..

eventhough I try to busy Myself with a lot of things..flashback of Our memory appeared and make Me end up fall Myself to the ground..

please hug Me tightly..
please kiss Me passionately..
please shout that You LOVE Me..
that is only I need !!

Force N Fight =P

this picture + this title was not related to the story~

hehe!!=)
yesterday,My Mama n Me went for a shopping at JJ..
wao..all various things was been sold in a bargain prices~sounds interesting??
but so crowded..yup~SUNDAY!!

My Mama bought Me 3 short-sleeve shirt and 1 long-sleeve cardigan..
Sis,why You still not here??haiz..if not We can ' pao ' Mama together2 like We used to do~
kih kih kih (devil's laugh..!!)

I watched television at that moment then My Mama asked Me whether wanna go to JJ or not??
then I replied that I want to go plus I can 'pao' My Mama..that is My first thought..
wikiwiki =P

1st,We heading to JJ's Supermarket..buy a few groceries and a lot of ' My Things '..
2nd,My Mama planned to have a lunch at Shakey's but I disagreed with My Mama because I am boycott all US and Israel products..despite of My Mama want to eat western food~so,I recommended ' The Egg's House ' to My Mama..Angel of Food but Devil of Price..hehe!!=) JK~
after that We just walk..walk..walk..

after that My eyes suddenly was shoot by an arrow of cupid..wahahaha!!=) maybe because of priceboard MYR19:90 was hang here and there inside that shop~but unfortunately I had short-term memory to remember the name of that shop..haiz~but I am sure that the shop was located besides of the shop called ' D&D ' probably..emm..' Kenny & What la '~sorry cant memorised It!! BIYA_NE !! I just bought 1 shirts there..It is only cost MYR19:90~It is red+grey strips shirt and have a nice decoration on the top of that shirt wrote It as ' LOVE '..hehe!!=)
I was attracted with that shirt on the first-sight..wahaha!!=) I wanna owned It but the problem is,the shirt was hold by Anonymous-Aunty..haiz~and only left 1..Aiyaya!!but thank God..that Aunty seems not really interested of that shirt anymore after Her husband introduced another shirts to Her for Their daughter~fuh..(feel relieved..a LOT~) fast fast grabbed It after a few minutes pretending to see another cloth..then show to My Mama..Ma,I want these..can??after got the approval strictly go for purchased after a few minutes looking for another shirts to buy but nothing interesting~

walk..walk..walk..
Went to Zinc..emm,nothing interesting and got no new update~just went inside that shop..looking for a shirt~see see then went out..

walk..walk..walk..
stucked at Chic Avenue..wao~cheap cheap!!so,bought 2 short-sleeve shirt ( Purple+Maroon) and 1 long-sleeve cardigan (Red) that only cost MYR10 each..OMG~My Mama also bought for Herself..black shirt with a skeleton+lovelove art on It~what make Me attracted on those shirt is the Art or The Decoration that applied on It looks like ' Radioactive ' brand but It is ' Scarlet ' brand..Sis,go back home fast fast lor~haiz!! miss You oh..I want bough for You the shirt that wrote ' CUTE SISTER' on It but I am worried if You dont like It because the colour of that T-shirt is bright green~

Me , Myself N I

turn 18 this year..hehe!!=) I am OLD~

25 April 1991 is the date I am birth~

lurve lurve My Family always !!

complicated to describe Me if You dont know Me deeply !!

I am sometimes too shy and sometimes too frankly

I can easily trust people but I will never believe to Their promises !!

I lurve to eat ice-cream,chocolates and candies~I got sweet tooth=)

I can be too obsessed about something that I adore~

I hate schooling..school is boring ( dont follow My bad attitude )

I lurve when people advice Me..dunno why~but sometimes I take It for granted !! (almost I think..hehe^^=)

I lurve sarcastic people such as My Bro Shahril..hehe!!=) His jokes always make Me laugh ou loud~trust Me!!

I lurve Hello Kitty stuff..hehe!!=) My Sis say that I am childish..yup!! I am~

I lurve listen to Korean and Japanese songs eventhough I dont know what the meaning is..hehe!!=)

I am addicted to Korean and Japanese Drama..hehe!!=)

I lurve My Blog !! <3

STOP Blaming Others !! START Blaming Yourself !!

GLOBAL WARMING
We keep nagging the warming of Our world nowadays..temperature rising..Your friends called You and You reply It as " not feeling wanna going out lor..so hot outside..I am going to burn "..We blaming the factories that lead to the global warming by the smokes that come out..these kind of questions always came out from Your mouth " does they use any protection so that It can lessen the output of smokes??does they know that the Carbon Dioxide can encouraged to the formation of Violet ray??hey,better stop the industrial factories !! Do You blaming the increasing of Our vehicles rates per year??the automobile industries??the new come out of vehicles??

DRUG ADDICT
You blaming the drug dealer??the government action??punishment of the drug addict and drug dealer??Who is inventing drug??Why the late generation invent It??What is the benificial of It??

SMOKING
What does It taste??does It necessecery things to do to get rid of stress??why dont You riding Roller Coster or anything else to prevent takings of cigarette??does It a modern style to be shown??looking cool for doing that??emm(sigh..)It is contains a lot of chemical substances such as nicotine,tobacco tar,etc..haiz~ It can shorten Your life-span and It can lead You to many illnesses and diseases such as lung cancer,bronchitis,etc..

ALCOHOLIC
are You wanna forget the past??takes alcohol is not the perfect solution for that kind of situation..emm..Alcohol is known as chemical substances in aquous state..but I called It as Aquous Stupidos!!

Wishes List ?? LOLz~

what??wishes list??LOLz~hehe!!=) I am become lil bit crazy ryte now !!

1.Ivan ( He is My Friend..He wish last Saturday in advanced because He now at NS..hehe!!=) often complaining been torturing lor,tired lor,wanna back home lor..cayok2 Ivan!!)
2.Momoko (She is My Friend from Philipines..She is so nice!! miss You oh!!)
3.My Only One Sis (She is My BSF-Best Sister Forever..She wish Me sharp oo:ooam..hehe!! ' Nol Saranghandago ' " Happy bday adek! Muahx! " She text Me)
4. My Mama
5.Ivan ( " Hey April.how r u?Hapi birthday oh~Finally u 18 loh,Dun always like baby oh~take care ur health n smile always,K?^^muakz~ " He text Me )
6.My Bro Chapiq ( He is My BBF-Best Brother Forever..He wish Me just now..and already promised to Me something!! Chapiq Oppa so geng-means crazy in chinese..hehe " Eppy burfday.After Chapiq exam Chapiq belikn hadiah k.Ehehe. " He text Me )
7.Ayumi (She is My BFF-Best Friend Forever.." Hye..HAPPY BEZDAY TO U!!..wah umo awk dh genap 18thn ari nie..moga pjg umo,murah rezki,happy selalu,sntiasa tabah melalui ari2 yg mendatang n sukses dlm ape2 bidang yg diceburi..hope kte sahabat smpi bile2 k..:-) " She text Me)
8.Eddy (He is My Friendster's Friend.. " Hi april! Hw r u?U may oredi 4get bout me,my name.. Who Im & who I am 2U...all those times we spent 2gether n even my bday.But even if U 4get all bout me,i Jz 1 U 2 know dat I'll neva 4get everything bout U! So here im 2 wish u a happy belovedbday..may all ur wishes come true! May u b healthy.. Tc,bye " He text Me and I got a bit blurred at some part..I think He wanna text this to His GF probably!! )
9.Syaza (She is My School's Friend.. " April,hpy belated bzdaay..S0rry 4 da late wish 2 u.. " )

(to be continued)

Twenty 5 April

yummy2~=P

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To You

Happy Birthday To April

Happy Birthday To You ~~~~~

today is My date of birthday..
the date where I entered the world..
the date where I lost the protection of My mum's womb..
the date where I entered a world of impure white light..
the date where I reminded every single day..
the date where I wait for..

today is My date of birthday..
the date where I turned to grown up..

I already turn 8tEeN..
wish Me all the best in My life ya!!
25th APRIL 2009-SWEET 8TEEN~=) ohh..I am sooooow OLD !!

Secret of Home-Made Biscuit Cake (My Sis taught Me)

Home-Made Biscuit Cake..yum2~=)

hehe!!=) the title is so confusing..but I like It !!
(SIMPLE BUT DELICIOUS)let Me teach You all how to make It..1st,need to prepare the ingredient..go lor to any nearer supermarket and buy It..here got some list of the things that You have to prepared!!okies??are You ready??(approximately for 6 person)

INGREDIENTS
1.1 small packet of Milo..
2.1 packet of Biscuit Marie..
3.chocolate bars or chocolate chips ( from any brands : suggestion-Hersheys)
4.1 tin of creamer milk..
5. 4 cup of plain water..
6. 2 full cup of oatmeal..
7.cocoa powder..

PREPARATION
1.put a small packet of milo into a medium pot..
2.then,put a 4 spoon of creamer milk..
3.after that pour 4 cup of plain water into It..mix It all
4.then,put 2 full cup of oatmeal , a 1/3 of chocolate bars and 2 tablespoon of cocoa powder..
5.after mix It all..at last,turn off the stove then put a packet of biscuit Marie (1 piece of biscuit crush It into 4 part )
6.make sure all the biscuit were mixed properly with the any ingredient to have a nice flavour and concentration !!
7.after all was done,put It into any suitable container then left It till cold a bit in room temperature..after that put It into fridge..
8.You Are Ready To Eat !! Yummy2~=) oishii ne ..

Today Words is ' BurN ' okies ??

hehe!!=)

My life today was so damn funny..
burn all day long..

1.I order Waffle strawberry+chocolate diz morning..then It is burn!! Oh My Gosh..thanxz to that Uncle cause understand My body language without been asked to exchange..wahaha!!=) ( My reaction : shocked =o )

2.secondly,despite of tomorrow is My Birthday..I baked My Own cakes with 1000xbig effort( My 1st tyme )..lastly It is burn..but I am not easily give up on My mission to complete It..wanna noe how long It takes to bake that cake??20 minutes It is done..how does It taste??emm..not bad,but I am scared because My stomach started to feel pain afta eat a slice of My home-made cake..OMGee..what was happen to Me??hehe!!=) kidding~

The Sounds of Violin ( Her Story )

writing with a sounds of violin

ONE
her birthday was the day
she entered the world
the day she lost the protection
of her mother's womb
and entered a world
of impure white light

TWO
her birthday was her
first day of school
the day she was introduced
into a world of socializing
friendship that would last forever
and cruelty that’d scare for life

THREE
her birthday was the day
she had found her true love
and forged a pact with him
blinded by the dark
she began to enter a one way street
without a chance of ever returning

FOUR
her birthday was the day, she saw into the sky
and when her life had come spiraling down
it was the day, she found out
she was an orphan, for life
the day she was more unwanted
and was cast away to rot

FIVE
her birthday was the day, she began all her lies
and threw all her emotions, to the other side
it was the day, she turned lonely and cold
building her own, emotional wall

SIX
her birthday marked her capability
to legally throw away the last of her virtue
the day she gave up things she’d never get back
no matter how hard she tried or fought
it was the first day of the her life without anymore light

SEVEN
her birthday, was the day that was quickly approaching
and in all her loneliness and despair, she smiled her empty smile
she could not wait, a year closer to her death
and she wondered why it was that it took quite so long

EIGHT
her birthday was the day that her patience finally evaporated
she gave up on waiting for death to find her
and went searching for it herself
it was the day that she destroyed the last living parts of herself

NINE
her birthday was the day, she lost it all, and her cold ice heart sang its final song

her birthday was the finale of her life, her birthday was her funeral

her birthday did not merit any good wishes or surprises

her birthday slowly slipped past, yet no one was there to say

' HAPPY BIRTHDAY ' to her corpse !!

SARANGalhee / LOVE Sick <3

when I miss you, I close my eyes and I can see that person better..
I try to forget and erase, but I get reminded of that person more..
I told myself a lie thinking that, that person would come back..
that person never said that He will be coming back, but all I can do is just wait..

the pain of loving that person a lot, the pain of loving you a lot..
because of you, and because of pain, im sick of waiting..
the pain of loving you more, the pain of missing you a lot..
because of you, and because of pain, im crying with pain..like this!!

breaking up is fast, but forgetting is hard..
the love is painful, and I am hurt alone..

did you have to leave that far away from me??
did you have to leave that far away from me??
I shouldve loved you with all my life, but you forgot me now like a heartless person..
I shouldve loved you with my all, but now you live forgetting me..

with all my life, the person that I love..
that person only gave me tears and left..
the tough love which I was hurt alone..

the pain of loving you more, the pain of missing you a lot..
because of you, and because of pain, im crying with pain..like this!!

Patriotic Me <3

Negaraku

Tanah tumpahnya darahku

Rakyat hidup bersatu dan maju

Rahmat bahagia Tuhan kurniakan

Raja kita selamat bertakhta

Rahmat bahagia Tuhan kurniakan

Raja kita selamat bertakhta

(MALAYSIA Anthem:Negaraku)

Untitled

hehe!!=)
I just realised that no entry for last Sunday..
I just missed It up..
dissappeared and missing for awhile..LOLz~

listening to (My Shaffiq Oppa) Chapiq's fav Song..Locked In LOVE by James Baum..
Aiyaya..only one words can describe that song 'DEEP'..hehe!!=)

It really is..
make Me touched~
if You guys dont believe in Me..
go to Youtube then check It out lor~okies ??
FYI , He is MALAYSIAn !! support local music !!

-SIGNING OFF-

Killer Criticize ( to Myself )

(this is happen to another country-not MALAYSIA)
When I switched on TV..
politics here..politics there..
haiz..(sigh..)
are You all just know how to open Your mouth ??
then nagging and babbling nonsensed??
I am sick of It..

fighting gov and non-gov here and there??
just like animals in the zoo ??
I think animals in the zoo more have nice behaviour and good manners than You all..

I am not into a politics..
creates dramas and hoping for spectators to judge You..
so lame !!
We know them all..

(Terima Kasih Ya ALLAH , MALAYSIA in PEACE !! KAMI anak MALAYSIA !!..LOLz~)

Cassiopeia Constellation

It's 12 at night, drunk with a tired voice..
It's 2 in the morning, a cold hangup of the phone..

No one knows my heart..
I can't stop LOVE LOVE LOVE..
Even though it hurts, I keep repeating..
I can't stop LOVE LOVE LOVE..

Have you ever loved..
Like in the movies where they fall in love at first sight..
Stayed up all night on the phone..
Bragged to the world.Waited in the pouring rain..
Ran like crazy towards them..
Secretly watched them..
Gone crazy..
Pretended not to see them..

Of course you have, loved..
Gone broke because of anniverseries..
Said sorry even after you did well..
Stayed up all night writing a love letter..
Moved a date with your family..
Prayed to God for them not to hurt..
Avoided friends..
Watched their backs as they left..

I loved them like crazy,why ??
I was really good to them, why ??
I loved them to death, why ??
I gave them my heart..
I've lost lost everything, what do I do ??

Have you ever broken up ??
Had your makeup erase in the rain ??
Cut your long hair ??
Picked up a cigarette even though you quit ??
Avoided a place thinking that you would meet them ??
Written a letter that you couldn't send ??
Get drunk and dial their number (hello) had your lips freeze ??

Of course you have, broken up..
Hated them as much as you loved them ??
Torn a letter you couldn't read ??
Erased a number you couldn't forget ??
Celebrated an anniversary on your own ??
Burnt all the pictures ??
Thought that all the sad songs in this world was about you ??

Cry like a fool, get drunk again ??
Grab your friends and curse that person ??
Time passes, and you get drunk again ??
Pick up the phone, say LOVE !!

Oh Em Gee ~

sleepy~

Oh Em Gee..
sow sleepy ryte now..
usually not lyke diz~
how bout Me write sumthin' bout sleepy ??
okies o not ??

My eyes cant stands to open because of our piled of memories..
but I try to make It..
I try eventhough It is really painfull and tiring..

hehe!!=) lack of rest + lack of ideas = sleepy

Bullet Train

fallin in LOVE is as rapid as Bullet Train..
fallin in LOVE is as tough as sit for SPM Examination..
fallin in LOVE ia as scary as Japanese Horror Movie (Ju-On)..
fallin in LOVE is as romantic as Korean Love Drama (Stairway To Heaven)..

LOVE comes and goes..
but Our memories doesnt comes and goes as long You dont have Amnesia disease ( memory lost )..

I stay away from the first place We met..
I stay away from the placed that We used to go..

I try to thrown up all Your things that You give to Me..
I try to thrown up all Your clothes that You left at My house..

I do touched..
the smell of those things stick at My hands..
I try get rid of that but It doesnt works..
My hands still can smell Our memory that still lingers inner My box of mind..

You Are O2 !! ( to My Sis )

Dear My Love ,
eventhough I am not there with You when You need Me..
eventhough I cant see Your face expression when You felt left out..
eventhough I dont know how Your condition there(are You okay Dear ??)..
eventhough I damn missed You almost every ticking of clock(Yes , I do)..
eventhough I cant describe how much You love and miss Me..

I cant deny My feeling right now upon You..
I cant interprete It in clearly image..
I cant confess It by words( It is really deep )..
I cant show It through My action..
I cant predict what may happen to Me if You not here (in My soul)..

You are My Eyes..
You are My Nose..
You are My Ears..
You are My Lips..
You are My Heart..
You are My Vein..
You are My Blood vessels..
You are My Spinal Cord..
You are My Body..
You are My soul..
You are My LIFE !!

without You I am blind..
without You I am lack of oxygen..
without You I am deaf..
without You I am dying..
without You I am paralysed..
without You life seems no meaning..
without You life seems useless to Me..
without You I am dull..
without You I am plain..

You appreciate Me the way I am..
You taught My heart the things I never knew I had (LOVE)..

Anxiety Disorder

when I walked alone in the big street..
with nothing in My left and My right..
with My bag that hang in My left shoulder that become My subttitution of to My awkward feeling..
with My hair undone and messy despite of the breezy air..
the wind world seems to force Me to give up on My hopes and want to let Me down..
the windy surrounding blast My face and pulled Me backwards..as I am tiny and small compared to a nation of air..
the echoed of My shoes become My loyal friend..

every steps that I took was filled with a full pile of sweating hopes..
everyone that I passed will obviously felt the present of Me..
I became shy and put My face down while walking..
I try let My face up for a second and I saw many of coupled held their partner hand..
I put My face down again..
My gloomy feeling arrived on Me..
I try to hide that feeling..
I try to keep My tears from falling..
but I cant..
I became sad and I cry..

only shadows of mine accompanied Me along the way I walked..
only tears knows My feeling..

I hope this tears will send a telepathy to You..
as many tears that flow through My cheeks..

nobody will understand Me..
nobody will accompany Me..
nobody will hear Me..
nobody..

I know that I'm all alone by Myself..
these kinds of feeling keep chasing Me and never let Me go even a second..
these kinds of feeling keep haunting Me eventhough I am with someone..
I feel ANXIETY !!

Stairway To Heaven

I went to meet My dentist today baecause I have an appointment every Friday..
It was a really torturing session..
trust Me !!
You need to trust Me this time !!
You must !!
hehe!!=)

after that I went to My 2nd House that is JJ..
hehe!!=)
that place so inviting..
so starving..I dont have any choice besides eat at ' Food Court ' or ' The Eggs House '~
1st I thought I wanna have My lunch at ' The Eggs House ' but changed My mind already because I just ate same meal last week..
so, I bought ' Nasi Ayam Masak Merah ' for take away at ' Food Court '..
then went to SnJ..not bought anyting..just go and ' cuci mata ' there..
actually,quite long time..I didnt spend My time to drop there but I got chance today to went there but find out that nothing updating and new coming..
haiz~~so lame!!

walk..walk..walk..
All the sudden , I stopped at ' Big Apple '..
ermm..
looks so yummy2..
then I bought only 3 pieces that costs MYR 2.20 each..
because I knew if I brought back home..only Me need to finished it all !!
It do taste like in heaven !! LOLz~

Transform From This To That

You need to have to meet life experiences before You realise You know what they mean..

At times in life We need to live simple , think simple , eat simple..

We cannot demand changes from people or things that We cannot control..
We can only control or change our thoughts..
We must be willing to listen and learn from those wise people..

Like the old saying ,
if you want something to change ,
you take the first step to change first..
I guess if everyone practices what Gandhi is trying to tell us then we will be able to achieve life happiness because happiness is not measure by money or others but it is truly by you yourself..