Dear My Flesh N Blood =)

I know that You feel upset..
I know that You feel depressed..
I know It..
anti-depressing pills does not works..
It is doesnt works on You..

I also feel upset about Myself too..
I know It..
eventhough a pile full of tears..
It doesnt works on Me anymore..
I still feel upset..
I feel My life blackout for a second..

My promise to You ??
all just left as promise..
I know It..
I am taking easy on My own promise..
everything screwed up..

You can put all the blame on Me..
You can..
Yes,You can !!
You are honoured to do so..
please do !!
I dont mind..
It ain't Your fault..

I am the one to blame..
I am guilty!!

am I regret ??
Yes, I do regret..
regret as tall as a tower..

eventhough You treat Me well..
I still cant forget..
I am felt ashamed about Myself..
that feeling is so cliche for some people..
but for Me..
It is not !!

I love You Abah..
I love You Mama..
I love You Abang..
I love You Kayna..
I love You Chapiq..
I LOVE YOU..

You are the reason I still here..
writing this blog..
waiting for You to love Me back..
eventhough waiting is tiring..
I still here..
I still here for You..

nobody know how much I love You..
You are My guide..
You are My belief..
You are My soul..
You are My blood..
You are My heart..
You are everything to Me !!

ps: to My Parents N Siblings ~ x0x0
" NEON NA EH GU WON !! SARANG HAE HAN DAGO ~ "